Today was weird, but otherwise okay.
Last week, I had an interview where I had to present my plans for the position for an hour. The presentation/interview went incredibly well – so much better than I ever could’ve dreamed – and I got a lot of crazy good feedback from the panel participants. I got a random call today from someone on that team who wasn’t able to be there for the interview and he talked to me for over an hour about how well-received my presentation was (according to the team chatter) and gave me more info on the position. He made it clear he has nothing to do with the hiring, but that if I don’t get this job I’d certainly get another job on that team in the future. It was a nice call, but it was just… strange. How often do you have interviews where you 1) get feedback at all; 2) get such positive feedback; and 3) have random team members calling you from Europe to introduce themselves, a week after the interview? The way the guy was talking, it sounded like I’m not getting the job (which I expect, honestly – it’s an enormous leap from my current position), but then again, he’s not involved with the decision. I really don’t know how to take that. Meanwhile, I’m still waiting to hear back about everything I’ve interviewed for recently, and I got another call today for a phone interview for yet another position.
Lots of balls, up in the air. Hopefully I don’t drop all of them.
A couple non-paying balls were recently taken out of my hands unwillingly, so I’m finding I have some extra free time and a whole lot of stress and pain to work through. Not to go into detail about the situation, but I haven’t been sleeping and I haven’t been all that interested in eating, and I’m just generally really miserable right now. The few people who’ve seen me since Monday and who know the story have been doing everything in their power to be supportive, but it’s hard. Really hard. One friend compared me to herself the year prior when she was going through her divorce. So needless to say, I needed a departure from reality for a little while.
Everyone has been telling me I need to see Black Panther, so I made a spontaneous decision to go see it tonight. Like, I got in my car and headed towards home, but something pulled my arm to the right and suddenly I was on the parkway headed towards Penn Hills Cinemas. I arrived just in time for the 7pm showing to start, and I decided to treat myself to popcorn as an incentive to actually eat food.
I’m happy to say that I didn’t check my phone once the entire time I was in the theater, so I had a bit of a break from the insanity. Additionally, I ate all of the popcorn (which was a small, but which seemed… not small), so there’s some food in my system once again. I enjoyed the movie a lot, and I especially loved that (like Wonder Woman) there were a lot of powerful women in it. I know that’s not the point of the movie and it’s not the only thing I got out of it, but I like that we’re seeing more of that trend. It was a great way to spend the evening, and it was nice to be “distracted” for the night.
Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to take some Tylenol PM so I can hopefully sleep a little tonight. #shambles